Thursday, July 29, 2010

Too much time had passed.

It has been a year since I have posted anything, and the thought of signing on to create a post is so overwhelming that I have procrastinated further. I have been lost in thought today about my beautiful sister Kelli who recently suffered a miscarriage. We were so excited to be pregnant together. We were pregnant together with our last babies and it was so much fun. Now I am still pregnant and she is not. I am so sad for her and even feel guilty that I am pregnant and she isn't. I don't really know what to say or how to act. I am excited about my new baby and I know she is too but I don't want to talk about it too much because I know she is devastated with her loss. I wish I were the writer she is, I would be able to better describe my thoughts and feelings. For now this is the end of the post. I love you Kelli!

2 comments:

Kelli said...

cristy, this is so sweet. i'm sorry i didn't read it sooner. i feel terrible that you felt like you couldn't be excited around me or talk with me about your pregnancy. i couldn't be happier for you and would never want to take that away from you, no matter what. i admit i get jealous when i see pregnant bellies, but my sisters are different. when i see yours it only makes me happy. thanks for caring so much about me, but please don't ever feel like you need to tone down your excitement or walk on egg shells about anything. i love you!

Kelli said...

cristy, this is so sweet. i'm sorry i didn't read it sooner. i feel terrible that you felt like you couldn't be excited around me or talk with me about your pregnancy. i couldn't be happier for you and would never want to take that away from you, no matter what. i admit i get jealous when i see pregnant bellies, but my sisters are different. when i see yours it only makes me happy. thanks for caring so much about me, but please don't ever feel like you need to tone down your excitement or walk on egg shells about anything. i love you!